Worth the Wait

I have been living that single life for oh so long
praying that one day God simply sends me the one.
A man
who has been handcrafted by the Master himself,
And not just any old measly one.


“…his heart beat is in sync to the rhythm of mine
When we connect, the world can feel our love flow.”

Every vein in his body is so intricately woven
from his head down to his toes.
And his heart beat is in sync to the rhythm of mine
When we connect, the world can feel our love flow.

He is strong enough to lead his family,
Yet gentle with his love.
I am the only woman who exists to him
To this one man, I am his world.

There are no questions or second guessing his intentions with me.
There are no stipulations attached to his heart.
He knows that cheating on me is actually cheating himself,
So cherishing me is his top priority
Yeah…That part!

He will love me when the ocean waters are at peace,
But hold me closer during winter storms.
After he has seen the best and worst versions of me,
He will choose both, because without me he’s torn.

For too long, I gave the wrong guys that “wifey treatment.”
I guess I thought that love could be taught.
Was always coming up with creative ways to please those niggas
But in their life, I was merely an afterthought.

Too many women try to make the wrong men fit
onto the perfect mural they’re painting…
Girl, trust me, being single is worth the wait.
Until God sends you that guy
who appreciates everything the others took for granted,
Take your own self out on that date.

© 2019 | @MsToyaMichelle

Living Out Loud

“Stop holding yourself back. If you aren’t happy, make a change.”

~ MJ Harris

Today I was told that my life isn’t exciting enough to blog about. My feelings were hurt momentarily, but I quickly reminded myself of the “why” behind my new journey into the world of blogging. No, my life isn’t peaches and cream and everyday is not an exciting one. But that doesn’t mean that I have nothing to contribute to the world. I don’t think the person meant to hurt my feelings but this is an example of what I have experienced my entire life. Negativity. A nonexistent support system. Isolation.

For far too long, I have let people tear me down with their words, both directly and indirectly. Their actions have made me feel like I was less than a person at times. Some people make me feel like I am straight up invisible to them and I find myself asking, “Am I really alive?” Instead of confronting people, I’ve learn to deal with my emotions silently…keeping everything in my head. I smile at people on a daily basis who I know don’t like me, and I L.O.L. (laugh out loud) to keep from crying because I am simply misunderstood.

The goal of my Shy Girl Speaks blog is to help free up some space in my mind by sharing my thoughts with the world. Instead of keeping everything on the inside, I am choosing today to begin “Living Out Loud!” In doing so, I am also learning to be a little more confident in who I am so that I can grow into the person that I was meant to be. This blog is for ME and for those of you out there who can relate to me.